| Where do you rest that I can't hear you?
I don't perceive your voice
Neither your agitated breath
Nor your heart beating close to mine
I look for you with my eyes closed
And I only saw
winged beings
Omniscient beards
Kind and petrified looks
But
you were not there
How could I search for you
if I don't know who you are
Nor how you dress
Nor how you greet the wind
Nor how you kiss the night good-bye
I
don't know your music Neither your song
I don't know your fragrance
Neither your shadow, nor your destiny
I
only know that I need you
I can only recognize my longings
I
only want you to manifest yourself
Even it is only a word,
A
sentence or a smile
I tried
to sense you and I could only sense myself
I tried to smell
you and got back the perfume of my own dreams
I tried to imagined
you and I could only imagine myself
I tried to grasp for you
and I ended up grasping myself
That
was how I learn were you rest
That was how I discovered were
to find you
That was how I tuned my ear to your voice
And one
day you spoke to me…
And your words
were already known by me
And your sentences were already loved
by me
And your advice was received with an open heart
And that
was how you started to guide me.
Today
I am grateful for your kindness
Joyful like the storm
Soft like
the spume
Ample like the desert
I
am also grateful for your wisdom
Made of many colors and fire
Of thunder and infinite spaces
Of lights and reflections
Of
women and men
Of children and old people
Of warm human beings
Above
all I am grateful for your strength
Gentle and powerful
Simple
and radiant
Enormous power to move universes
To change the stars
To open new galaxies
To expand all the contractions of the soul
With a tenderness that only you possess.
It
is a great honor to be guided by your voice
To be heard by your
ears
To be lead by your footsteps
Thanks
Gracias Merci
Fernando Aránguiz
May 1998
Abstract "The
configuration of the Internal Guide was a lot harder than what
I initially thought when reading the description on the book
of the Community. In truth, it was quite frustrating and discouraging
until one day the voice manifested itself. My Guide was not
an image but rather a voice I had loved forever…" Extract
from an unpublished novel -"The Anniversary" -
The Internal Guide chapter |
